-.-

They're having a long distance thing? NAH nah, never work.

I

miss my grandpa more than ever. I'm thinking more and more about him everyday, and it's so hard. I know he's in a better place right now, but adfjlakjdgajgj. I still miss my gramps D:

life's so stressful, but thanks to HIM, im learning to love life more and more<3 thank youuu ! :) and caroline marshall ! thanks for everythingggg, and rachelkang i miss you. allypastores, bestfrannn, THANK YOU <3 TQ---thank you:D

ground.

First time grounding. basically, it was mostly my fault buttttt i shouldn't have gotten my stuff taken away. I can't live without my cell phone,-___-; talked with momm about it and im able to spend more time with the family so i guess that's a perk. I'm just worried he'll leave me. I trust his word that he won't but im still a lil' anxious. pray pray pray.

(:

4/17/09, 4/20/09, 4/22/09<33
Gooooooooooood days !

this spring breakkk

was the best i could ask for <3
:P had the most fun-filled days ever. Tennis, aim, bravo burger, the hill, dennys (: are filled with happy memories for me now (:
Thanks Tony, Vivi, Brian for everything :D
4/12/09, 4/14/09, 4/15/09, 4/16/09 :D

exercising

is exhausting D: got two new bruises on my hip bones..people think its grosss. people think its cause i got beat up, but truthfully, i got it from hulahooping:) lmao and no its not the skimpy small lightweight hulahoop, its the huge heavy with the ridges on the inside health hulahoop. hoping to losee some from doing all this.

starting

to exercise again starting TODAY ! and dieting. put it off for a week, but tryna start today again. ate cereal, a cookie, and bread, LMAO and thats all like carbs and everything D: but imma go home and eat SALAD WITH CHICKEN(: and dinner later. afterwards, exercising with mah mamaaa !

Annie Kim is FAT!!!

FAILING

special k challenge D:

It's been a loooong time

It's been such a long time since i last wrote in this. Uh i just wanna say sorry again, to you-know-who-you-are. And i especially wanna thank CAROLINE MARSHALL, EMILY WOONG(: Yuu girlies are always there for me<3 I love youu ! Anyways, the drama mama has been on the D.L. lately and I thank God for that. I don't know WHAT to think about anything anymore....It's been really confusing for me the past weeks. I just pray that everything gets better, and I thank God that things DID get better. One more thing : Boys are confusing. OH YEAH. I'm starting to regret what happened with HIM, and that we broke. :0 He probably hates me now, and I don't know what to do about it....

Gahd.

Someone help me, I thought that we'd be able to end things clean between us, at least stay friends...But once again, I realized it's kind of impossible to stay friends. I know that after time, things will get better. But for right now, you need your time, i need my time, and we need our time. We might not talk for days, weeks, months, or even a year, but sooner or later, we will talk. There are false rumors spreading and I now realize how much it hurts when people gossip about others. Some stuff you hear are right, but most of what you hear is wrong. For those who are reading this that know what's going on, I just want to apologize. I know apologizing on blogspot is not as meaningful as saying sorry in person, but it has the same amount of meaning and feeling. Especially YOU, i'm sorry. I'm sorry for the way i've acted, I'm sorry for what happened afterwards, and I'm sorry for hurting you. I hope that one day you'll be able to forgive me. I can understand why you're pissed, and I need to make things smooth with you again. I'm really sorry.

RHONABUSTAMANTE

RhonaBustamante! Hello bestfriend:DYou wanted me to write you a blogggggg, and so I am. I just wanna say thanks for all the EPIC MOMENTS! how many do we have now? Likeeee 10? HAHAH Your wonderful, and you and cameron are uber cute together. Your my best friend, and thanks for everythingg. You've given me gooood advice, and really funny times<3

JESSICA LOPEZ

JessicaLopez(: It's yo birthday tomorrow baby! You are turning 15, and then five more years to you becoming TWENTY! hahah im just kidding. I just wanna say that i know that your having a hard time right now, with stuff that i really can't say on blogspot, but i want you to know that im ALWAYS here for you! I know that the past year has been a lotta ups and downs for us; it wasn't fighting really, but we had our arguements here and there. Let's put that in the past, and be the good friends that we were:) We drifted apart, but now we're getting closer and closer everyday, and im so glad! Hahah, Jessica, I know that you think that RachelKang replaced you, but you guys are BOTH my friends, my bestfriends. Remember, i have lots of bestfriends, and you are one of them. You are my one in a million friend, I don't have any friend like you! Thaas a good thang! You are gorgeous, funny, very weird, nice, and you are tre's tre's amusante! HAHAH Jess, believe me, you are a greattt person, and those who wouldn't want you, its totally THEIR loss. If they can't see whats in front of them, then they're just being friggin stupid. & just remember, you ALWAYS have me. You have so many people behind you. Lemme just name a few:) ME, RHONA, MEGAN, JESSICA, JUSTIN, your friend NEIL, MICHAEL, IZZY, CASSANDRA. If you want me to name more, I so can. Jessica, you should feeeeeel special, cause i never wrote a blog for someone's birfday! I love you with all my heart, and Your my bestesttt friend! Keep your head up, and don't let that stupidhead bring you down. "He's not worth your tears." Remember that? You said that to me when I was having trouble, Now it's time to take your own advice babydoll. I LOVE YOU& HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

MichaelBell

Hola senorita. How are U doing? Do u like ur BESTEST BUDDY! WOOOOOT I WIN!

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SPAOM!"

:DDDD 

AND FINALLY!!!!!!

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Bye bye :P

Well, that was my bestest buddy Michael Bell. We are in digital video at this moment, and its hecka boring. Can't believe blogspot ISN'T blocked:) This day has been pretty darn good, 'cept for the fact that i still think of them...Keeps bringing me down. On the brighter side of things, i have a 107% in biology hahah, 'nways, ill fersure update laterrr!

God's love

Love me for this, Love me for that, Love me for everything I do.
Do you know the definition of true love? True love is when that one special person knows all of your flaws and accepts you for who you are. Loves you for you, and not the plastic person you can be on the outside. That person digs deep inside your soul, finds who you truly are, and doesn't care about all your flaws, all your mistakes, all your sins. I believe every single person out there has that one special person to call their own. It's just a matter of when you find that person. It might be soon, or it might take a while, but don't let that bring you down. If there's a person you really like, and that person doesn't feel the same way, that just means that they're not the right person. Remember, your soul mate is the one you'll be spending your whole life with. You can wait a little while longer. I truly believe that the longer you wait for something, the better it'll turn out. I can say that about true love. God doesn't want us to be alone. That's why he made Adam AND Eve. That's why he made Man AND Wife. That's why he made Girlfriend AND Boyfriend.That's why he made family. Best friends. Friends. He didn't make for us to be alone. GOD IS LOVE. Let love be your greatest&highest aim. Trust God's love to work in you, through you.

1. Love comes from God.
2. Love is a choice; Love is a commitment.
3. Love is an action, not just an emotion.
4. Love is a skill. It's a skill you can get good at.
5. Love is a habit. You can't claim to be a loving person if you dont have love to love everyone.

"If you love those who love you, what credit is that to you?"-Luke 6:32
"Let us love one another, for love comes from God."-1 John 4:7


What is YOUR definition of love?

Sundayyy

Today was kind of a crasy day. For one, church wasn't as fun as it used to be. Bestfriend and i were discussin' and agreed that since the past year, church hasn't been fun. But i guess its not all bout having fun, its more about praising God(:
'Nother thing is he's pissed at me. He has no reason to be, he's just misunderstood? Whatevers. Hope things dwindle down.

I want somechangg crassy to happen soon! My life is toooo boring. Wanna partyy! hahah

For RachelKang;

babygirl, i miss you so much! you became my best friend so quickly, and it was soo cool 'cause it was so easy to open up to you and tell you EVERYTHANGG!:) hahah french was so fun, and all those times we hung out, even when it wasn't at like the movies, or CUE,-__-; hahah i can't believe you already went to dbhs! what the heckkk! you shoulda stayed, and ;odigiejljeljaljg it would've been the best. bestfriend, i miss you so much, and i love you! BFF foreverrr<3

today

So pretty fun day today, considering everything that's been happening. Since December, everything's been a blur, things just happening out of nowhere. Didn't expect any of this to happen, but life's full of surprises. Went so many places today; DMV, doctors, cellphone place, bakery, and sauna. haha had a blast at the spa, pretty much cause there was no school today. yessss. time to go sleep and refresh for school tomorrow-__-;

End.

So, it happened. I did it, it was hard at first, not knowing what he'd think or say about it, but i had my friends behind my back. He kept saying,"okay, okay, i understand." like he was pissed or getting pissed at the idea. Still don't feel too comfortable 'bout saying what i said, but all's well that end's well. My friends say that I'll feel better after a while. I hope so. I just need to get to know him better and all before anything else can happen. Needa find myself, Needa find what it is that i want. For now, just letting things flow, just letting things go. Didn't know what to say, how to say, when to say, or where to say it. Why's pretty easy. Just pray that I don't regret what i did. Kinda hoping he'll wait, kinda hoping he won't. Don't wanna get hurt again.

Jan 16, 2009<3

Friday, January 16th was the funnnnnest of funnnnnnest days ever. Got to hang with the bests at movies; RachelKang, AllyPastores, AshleySolis, MattLizada, and my new friend TimKim. Was gonna watch Unborn, but instead watched Bride Wars. It was altogether a fun time at Harkins:)

Thennnn church! Somechang happened, and so it was a realllly great day<3

LOL RachelKang, and AllyPastores, imma take you girlies to my church soooooon!

Loveyou<3

loveee

think about it : a person tells you you're beautiful. something goes wrong with you and that person and they say something bad about you, or you say something bad about them. If you really think about it, those are just words. "You're beautiful" is just like saying "I hate you". They're just words, but people get flattered by those comments. It's pretty silly. Well to me anyway. I'm not saying this universally, but for a lot of people, it goes like this.

It hit me hard. People say things, but who knows that they actually mean it? It might be all bullshh, who knows?

Relationships.

Hahah mmkay, so Rhona and I noticed how many people are going out around us. Well, among the people we know. And we came up with 16 couples. The thing is, I especially noticed how well all of the couples matched. Like they were made for one another.

I've realized that I can't live in the past anymore. I have to look to the future, and see what lies ahead of me. Without realizing it, i've ignored all the good things that was happening around me while i was moping around cause of what happened between us. Butttt that was me being stupid. There are so many great people out there, and I don't really need an ex to bring me down.
& I now know how great my friends are. They've been supporting me, and calling him names to make me feel better. Thanks guys! Lahveeee ya!

First ever

Ugh so tired. But 'nwayss, today was a pretty good day. Ohhhh yeah, at lunch, hung out with old bestie AllyPastores, just hope that we don't fade out again.

Things stuck out to me today. Like "If I was diff, then would we still have stayed together?" an all o' that BS. The questions like, did i do something wrong? why won't he talk to me? They don't matter no more. The past is the past. Like he said, "Get over it, move on. It's over." I realized how much meaning is put into those simple words. I can't say I don't miss "us", but things happen for a reason. I don't regret the time we spent , it made me stronger.

Oh yeee, most o' my friends seem to be making this. seems prettty chillll. So imma try it out, see how it goes(: &&& excited for Friday!