For RachelKang;

babygirl, i miss you so much! you became my best friend so quickly, and it was soo cool 'cause it was so easy to open up to you and tell you EVERYTHANGG!:) hahah french was so fun, and all those times we hung out, even when it wasn't at like the movies, or CUE,-__-; hahah i can't believe you already went to dbhs! what the heckkk! you shoulda stayed, and ;odigiejljeljaljg it would've been the best. bestfriend, i miss you so much, and i love you! BFF foreverrr<3

today

So pretty fun day today, considering everything that's been happening. Since December, everything's been a blur, things just happening out of nowhere. Didn't expect any of this to happen, but life's full of surprises. Went so many places today; DMV, doctors, cellphone place, bakery, and sauna. haha had a blast at the spa, pretty much cause there was no school today. yessss. time to go sleep and refresh for school tomorrow-__-;

End.

So, it happened. I did it, it was hard at first, not knowing what he'd think or say about it, but i had my friends behind my back. He kept saying,"okay, okay, i understand." like he was pissed or getting pissed at the idea. Still don't feel too comfortable 'bout saying what i said, but all's well that end's well. My friends say that I'll feel better after a while. I hope so. I just need to get to know him better and all before anything else can happen. Needa find myself, Needa find what it is that i want. For now, just letting things flow, just letting things go. Didn't know what to say, how to say, when to say, or where to say it. Why's pretty easy. Just pray that I don't regret what i did. Kinda hoping he'll wait, kinda hoping he won't. Don't wanna get hurt again.

Jan 16, 2009<3

Friday, January 16th was the funnnnnest of funnnnnnest days ever. Got to hang with the bests at movies; RachelKang, AllyPastores, AshleySolis, MattLizada, and my new friend TimKim. Was gonna watch Unborn, but instead watched Bride Wars. It was altogether a fun time at Harkins:)

Thennnn church! Somechang happened, and so it was a realllly great day<3

LOL RachelKang, and AllyPastores, imma take you girlies to my church soooooon!

Loveyou<3

loveee

think about it : a person tells you you're beautiful. something goes wrong with you and that person and they say something bad about you, or you say something bad about them. If you really think about it, those are just words. "You're beautiful" is just like saying "I hate you". They're just words, but people get flattered by those comments. It's pretty silly. Well to me anyway. I'm not saying this universally, but for a lot of people, it goes like this.

It hit me hard. People say things, but who knows that they actually mean it? It might be all bullshh, who knows?

Relationships.

Hahah mmkay, so Rhona and I noticed how many people are going out around us. Well, among the people we know. And we came up with 16 couples. The thing is, I especially noticed how well all of the couples matched. Like they were made for one another.

I've realized that I can't live in the past anymore. I have to look to the future, and see what lies ahead of me. Without realizing it, i've ignored all the good things that was happening around me while i was moping around cause of what happened between us. Butttt that was me being stupid. There are so many great people out there, and I don't really need an ex to bring me down.
& I now know how great my friends are. They've been supporting me, and calling him names to make me feel better. Thanks guys! Lahveeee ya!

First ever

Ugh so tired. But 'nwayss, today was a pretty good day. Ohhhh yeah, at lunch, hung out with old bestie AllyPastores, just hope that we don't fade out again.

Things stuck out to me today. Like "If I was diff, then would we still have stayed together?" an all o' that BS. The questions like, did i do something wrong? why won't he talk to me? They don't matter no more. The past is the past. Like he said, "Get over it, move on. It's over." I realized how much meaning is put into those simple words. I can't say I don't miss "us", but things happen for a reason. I don't regret the time we spent , it made me stronger.

Oh yeee, most o' my friends seem to be making this. seems prettty chillll. So imma try it out, see how it goes(: &&& excited for Friday!